it can get to an obsession, it can get to a depressing and depressed mode.
it can get you to anger, to disappointment, to cry, to scream, to eat whatever you may find around, to not eat that much anymore,
gees missing something or someone can really turn you into another person, and how long that state will affect yourself, or your life, it really depends only on you.
so today, yessir, we talk about that.
how do you feel when you miss something or someone?
like a smoker? who longs for the cigarette? obsessively thinking at the moment when will be able to take a deep breath of that?
like a hungry person? trying to fill up your inner void with food?
or perhaps you try to make it even bigger, making emptiness around that void eating less?
i don't know about you, but as far as it is related to me, the feeling of "missing" changes so much every time i have to face it.
Of course it depends also on many other things and not only on how you personally react to that.
how long this missing feeling will last, for example,
if you are going to see, feel, live again that thing that left an empty space in you , or not.
that of course does matter.

I think i experienced all the states above in my last "missing experiences",
but this time is slightly different.
It is not a huge pain, not a heavy rock placed there on your lap, but something less strong.
Less strong but perpetual, continuous, persistent.. which consumes you a bit at the time,
and then you realize a piece of you is missing once it ate it all.
and you realize that void is still there, growing.
like a small bug eating up a leaf, slowly taking its own time, but still relentlessly there.

right now i'm there, looking at the tiny stupid bug eating up my leaves,
waiting for the butterfly to come out.