yeap, i know,
it's been a while since i haven't updated my blog.
and i'm back here and things did happen, but i've just found myself at 10 days since i got back here, without really realizing it :)
and actually the work too didn't "feel" it at all..

the "reunion" concept\idea is something that i don't like, and that i think of, actually, as something pretty sad.
Never go back to a certain thing\period\place thinking at how it was and with the idea of making a sort of revival of old things happened. it just doesn't work, never.

When i think of "reunion", those 80's movies, about high school reunion that sometimes were on TV in italy, come up in my mind, or the movie from carlo verdone about the same thing as well, where old hisghschool mate just get disappointed and totally drunk in the end..
hope or expectation to find once back the same feelings we used to feel...
Expectation is such a bad word and concept, and it often brings along disappointment.

I'm more for new things, new fresh air, new feelings. and i try hard to give up on expectation, of any kind, because, for the way i am, i can forgive anyone for anything, i just can't be mad at a person for anything, but once i'm disappointed.. that's the turning point, the click that changes everything and hurts me.

I do need people.
I'm a people-holic, I can't stay without people, and in particular, i have to feel comfortable with them, once i have these boundary conditions :) , i just forget everything, and i'm happy, and moreover,
i feel fine, just fine.

like pretty much anyone around our planet (^-^)

Coming back here, for that kind of person that i am, has been a test, like i knew it would have been.
Like many other people i know here, i'm stuck in between two Chiara...

Being back home too, has been a test as well, the first one.
looking around all the things/people/memories that i have there with a different perspective, after my 7 months here, made me understand few things, and just screwed up few plans i had on my mind (^-^)
and again the test of being back here added few other thoughts.

but not only negative ones, not at all actually :)
it added a different thought about going thru all this transition actually, that just kicked away some bad thoughts.

We are all so busy in planning what we can't just plan or we may ended up not liking at all when we get to that point,
that.. sometimes, perhaps, step back and just enjoy moments is the only way to go thru what's going on.
that doesn't mean to be shallow, or cover with a veil all the mess around us. it means that we provide ourselves the best condition we can have to face things that are there waiting for us.

no pressure, no plans, no final point to reach or to die for, absolute ignorance of what is going to be after something, sometimes for some things is the only way to deal with them.
I know, it sounds like one should pretend of being superficial and let the chance decide for you.
but if these can make you feel good, live nice feelings, make you feel fine, FINE!!

is it so wrong?